Wasting time
About 11 years ago I read an article about “How many hours you waste in your life”
At the time I was a Single mum and I had no direction. I was searching for my purpose or something to sink my teeth into. I was scared but nothing scared me more than when I added up how many hours I watched tv.
I had a vivid dream that night (which I can remember in detail to this day) I was dead standing at the pearly white gates of heaven and God pointed at me and asked me to tell him my greatest moments in my life. I was shocked at first and then reeled off some of my greatest adventures only I realised they weren’t mine but those adventures of Actors on the best tv shows. I then had an aerial view and I could see it all unfolding and It was then that I had an epiphany. I wasn’t living at all I was spending far to much time watching tv and essentially living through the tv.
I woke up that morning with purpose and one was to shut the tv off. I remember thinking it was going to be so hard and what would I do, especially at night.
I decided no matter what I did with my life I would make sure I was doing it, living it. No more spending hours at night watching tv. ( I do watch tv but I have 3 shows a week I watch only)
As I look back and connect all the dots of those 11 years I have learnt I am a creative. It’s who I am. I can’t hide from it and I live everyday creating. Most days it is creating ideas and empowering others and on other days it is drawing, painting, designing, writing or photographing.
Being an entrepreneur is who I am also. Self employed doing more than one thing at one time. It is usually juggling a lot of balls in the air and to be honest I wouldn’t have it any other way.
As a creative I have to be continually moving. I have learnt (in the past the hard way) that I cannot stay doing the same thing for to long. So working a nine to five job doing one task, having one goal kills me. I get 6 months down the track and I’m done. I thrive on having diversity. It works for me and it has taken me a few years to figure out that this is who I am and instead of fighting to fit into everyone else’s mould it is better for me to just have a mould that is ever evolving like I am.
I always think about that dream from time to time and think have I done enough, explored enough and the answer is always NO. I have a thirst for adventure and I know later in life ( a lot later) when it is time to be standing at those Gates I can say “ Man I lived!”
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