I have dreamt of this project for over a year. From the day it came clear to me, to this day. I am sitting on the edge of release. I had planned to go live over a week ago. But I haven’t. It’s like I am staring at the headlights of an oncoming car. I am frozen.

Frozen in fear.

Is it enough, I should do more? I need to do more. What will people think? They may hate it. Maybe I am on the wrong track? Am I fooling myself that I can do this? Who do I think I am?… this isn’t me… just forget about it.

All these thoughts have swirled in my mind but I know if I don’t launch now, I wont launch ever.  I’m a starter but not a finisher…

I go over the website again and check it all – I know it needs so much more but it’s a catch 22. I need stats but I can’t get those until I launch. It needs to rank in Google… We have to go live to achieve that as well.

And yet I still sit and wait….  

I go over the site again. I am 72% happy so I send the email to launch… And now I wait. Again.

I still feel scared, nervous, and silly for taking so long but proud and excited because I know all of the possibilities that are coming. We have amazing things lined up and boy, oh boy am I excited over them all. Photoshoots, events, amazing interviews and stories and the more I think about it the more I know I am on the right track.

I have been blessed with amazing friends who believe in me and know that I am heading down the right path.

Doing something like this is scary but boy, is it worth it. We are moving into a new age and I want to be at the forefront of it. Creating my own path. Not attached to any corporation, instead telling the stories I think we as people need in our day-to-day life.

We are moving into an age where we can take the bull by the horns.

That’s what I am doing.

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